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Saturday, May 13, 2017

Shoppers Love You Run!!!

So today we ran the Shoppers Drug Mart Love You Run for Women

I was really nervous to run a 10k since I have not ran more than 5 or six 6 km on my treadmill over the past couple of months.  I probably should have ran the 5 km, but at this point it’s pretty much been a “go hard or go home” lifestyle (haha).  It was a funny day for weather, rain sun, cloud…etc.  I had a very motivating running partner that kept me going till the end, otherwise I would have finished a bit later for her :)   I am very proud of our 1:12 time.  When I was running 10km regularly I was around a 56 min and so far this year I have only ran on a treadmill…very different than trail running with inclines! Ouch. I can not walk properly today, but it was worth it.  What a great day, the atmosphere was fun & happy, the course was gorgeous, and we were surrounded by our new friends.

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May 10, 2017

Tonight was our last weigh in and we attended group dinner to commemorate our journey. It’s been an emotional roller coaster, full of hiccups, joys, success, disappointments laughter and soul searching. I am a bit of a broken record, but I am so thankful that I have started to be my true self again. I have a ways to go & I will trip and fall on my face often enough, but this time around I have become more familiar with getting back up again. I want to share a quote that I have carried in my purse for about 15 yrs now:

“This is the beginning of a new day. I have been given this day to use as I will. I can waste it – or use it for good, but what I do today is important because I am exchanging a day of my life for it!! When tomorrow comes, this day will be gone forever, leaving in it’s place something I have traded for it. I want it to be a gain, and not a loss; good, and not evil; success and not failure; in order that I shall not regret the price that I have paid for it.” Dr. Heartstill Wilson

I love this quote because each day is a gift, don’t waste it.

 

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May 9, 2017

Voting week.  I don’t like voting week.  It leaves me thinking things like “Do people actually want to vote for me”, “do I know enough people?”. “Are friends sick and tired of me asking for their vote each day?” I firmly feel a strong YES resonates with that last question for a lot of my friends.  Well friends, it is so close to being over that it will sound like crickets chirping from my feed for a bit after we find out who is our Challenge Winner.

Thank you to each and every person that thought my journey & effort deserved recognition or a hug or a pat on the back.  The friends that came out of the woodwork to show support was humbling.  There were messages and posts from acquaintances and old friends that made me tear up.  The fellow Challengers that wanted to let me know they support my journey also made me feel humbled and honored.

In a week life will once again be full-time work, motherhood, dance recitals, soccer, wife, adulting,  etc… but it’s my last week on this wild ride & I am lucky to have been on it.  Workouts, food changes, babysitters & not being home have been quite an adjustment, but as a result my family got back a women that had been buried in sadness, depression, self loathing at times.  But that was on the inside, I think I hid it well :)  But no matter, she is history.

 

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Monday May 8

Fashion Show!!!  So last night we started looking for our inner VIXEN lol.  We needed to learn to strut our stuff on the runway with confidence & humor…. OK they didn’t exactly say to do it with humor, but I can’t do it any other way.  It’s just too much out of the comfort zone not to laugh.  But man, it feels so good.

We had to see if we were a slower or faster walker & stride lengths, then we got paired up with similar “walker” so I have my partner. I think we look pretty good together, I hope you all will to when you see us walking THE WALK next Tues at the SHAPE YOUR VOGUE Fashion Show next week.

What a cool experience, but ouch… my lower back is sore from walking in heels all afternoon, but it’s still so worth it. We are back at it tonight! Watch out Next Top Model :)

 

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May 5, 2017

Well I guess it’s time to Blog… it seems to be the thing to do this week lol!

This week has been so busy! We made up our vision boards on Wednesday night and I mostly posted motivational sayings to keep me going on track after this journey is over. I had a few meltdowns as a mom over the past weekend with too many things going on at once and deflated. I ate the HEAD off of one of my kids Easter bunnies… the head! Poor bunny never saw it coming ;)

Setting goals is key. Erin & I are going to register for the Cultas Lake Sprint Triathlon in September, so that will set me on fire for the next 4 months for sure.  I need to have something to aspire to that includes something more than me. Yes, I am important and deserving of my goals, but I need to remain accountable & this is a big one!

 

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May 4, 2017

So last night was our last weigh in before the Voting begins & I thought I was going to post my first gain in the Challenge (I hadn’t had a gain week yet). I hadn’t been as diligent the past week & it showed.  In normal life, a .4 lb gain is normal and expected, it could be one big meal. But during the challenge, I am actively eating to lose fat & over the past week I wasn’t doing very well with my food decisions.  It was a great eye opener,  it reminded me that when I don’t track my calories and ignore the numbers, I gain.   I actually stripped down for weigh in this week! I removed my long sweater and hair clip so that I didn’t gain! That is NOT real life.

I will be getting rid of my scale after next week. I don’t like getting on my scale anymore. I like trying on clothes and seeing how they make me feel. I am really learning a lot about myself through this journey.

My scale does not define me. I have never been a typical number for my size. No one believes me ever when I tell them what I weigh. It’s been that way since I was in high school & I always knew muscle weighs more than fat. So Bye Bye scale. I don’t need you anymore.

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May 3, 2017

Well I have been insanely busy being a parent the past week & thought I had better “check in”.

The past few days were exciting as I was lucky enough to watch my daughter and her friends compete in a couple dance competitions around the lower mainland.  I have really became more aware of the way I speak to my daughter about self image and competition since I started the Challenge.  Watching these young women compete and step out in front for all to watch, critique and praise is quite a crazy thing to do!

We are doing the same thing with this challenge, and we all have to realize that ULTIMATELY the only person that matters in the in end is yourself.  Our worst critic is usually our own mind and it should be the other way around.  Our biggest support & strength should be inside, not external.  When the competitions end, when the challenge ends, all that will be left is you & your own thoughts and memories.  So love yourself first

I am rambling…but I had to get my thoughts out :)

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April 27, 2017

Last nights meeting was pretty special.  The group has become so much smaller, so as a result, our board members are closely involved in our meetings with us.  It sounds cheesy, but it has become very much like a sisterhood for me right now.   I am starting to feel sad knowing this is going to end soon.  The challenge has equipped me with the confidence and tools to carry on making myself a priority, but the camaraderie and support of the weekly meetings has been invaluable to me.

At our retreat we had to give a video interview about what the challenge has done for us… I was so nervous & didn’t really get to say what what inside my head, but I am pretty sure I got the point across (haha)

I am going to miss the constant support and accountability on The Challenge, but I know I have a huge friends and family connection that will still be watching & supporting after it’s all over. Felling Grateful

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April 23, 2017

I had the extraordinary opportunity to attend the “Best Kept Setret in Life, Love & Business” event With Jo Diblee at the Tigh Na Mara Resort in Parksville this past weekend.  I cannot begin to express to you the wisdom, talent and depth of those women who spoke at this event.  I am truly blessed and grateful to have had the opportunity to listen to their stories and and learn from them over the past 3 days.  So much information, sadness, joy & power in one room all at once was exhausting.  WOW!  Couple that with the amazing scenery & friendships & it’s overwhelming.  Thank you universe and thank you TMC for this weekend experience.  Lots of tears (happy & sad) lots of love & lots of wisdom.

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April 17, 2017

So this weekend has been really hard. It’s the first family dinner weekend of my challenge and there was Turkey, STUFFING (my fave), Ham, Mashed potatoes, SUGAR PIE (French Canadians will know what I’m talking about) and cookies and CUPCAKES and sooo much more. Ouch.  I was not a saint, but I was not the old me either.  First, at our community potluck there were so many cakes, cupcakes and cookies that I wanted to seizure, but I had a nice salad and some veggies & dip and a couple handfuls of popcorn.  Later that day at our Family dinner I had turkey, ham, veggies a tiny bit of stuffing, which I think was more torture than anything, a cookie and then later I stole a few mini eggs from my 5 yr old’s eater basket before bed (like I said, I am not a saint).

But I have to celebrate all that I didn’t do. I DIDN’T eat the bag of mini eggs, and pie and cupcakes and a plate of stuffing with gravy! Which I would have done so without a second thought. So here is to little victories.  I wish the cravings weren’t so strong, but I know it will happen in time.

'I'm usually a basket case at this time of year...'

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Saturday, April 15

Well I haven’t had a chance to gather my thoughts and put them into words over the past couple of days. Wednesday night was such an emotional storm.  I still don’t have the words to explain the immense joy and sorrow that hit me all at once.  We knew there were only going to be 5+1 Wildcard announced and I knew it could have been anyone’s names heard, but WOW!  My heart burst open when I heard my name.  I think I was too afraid to get my hopes up and I just kept trying to convince myself that I would have been happy either way.  But now I know that was just self preservation.  And the sorrow I felt was for my friends that didn’t get to hear their names… I cry as I type this because I wish I could put what it felt like at that moment into a hug & give it to them. (cheesey I know, but true).

I am so amazed by each one of the 30 women that started this journey and I am so lucky to get to call them my friends.  I am on pins and needles with anticipation looking towards sharing the next month with some very great ladies.

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Monday Apr 3rd, 2017

Tonight was a pretty cool night.  I am slowly moving back towards the lifestyle I used to enjoy.  I recently agreed to coach my son’s soccer team this Spring & I got to meet me new team tonight!  I have coached off & on over the past 5 years, but always felt self conscious because I didn’t “Look” like a soccer player anymore (in my mind at least).  Tonight I was able to run the practice warm up and felt fitter, and I felt that my newfound confidence showed.  The kids were all smiles and it was an all around great feeling.

Tomorrow night will be the BIG test…. my hubby and I signed up to play together (for the first time) on a masters co-ed soccer team.  I played for over 30 yrs when I had to stop for  many reasons out of my control, so this is crazy exciting and nerve wracking for me.  I can’t wait to run on the field and cross the ball. So excited. Once again I am doing something I had assumed was lost to me.

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April 2, 2017

So a fellow challenger and I were discussing our blogs last night. We were talking about the process of how we decide what we are going to blog about. It’s pretty hard coming up with things to put “out there” to share with the world. But this morning a friend texted me some awesome news and BAM, today’s topic hit me. She told me that since I have started my public challenge, she felt motivated to make some changes. She too was right there beside me on her own personal challenge and has successfully lost weight. And I realized that she wasn’t the only one. I have friends at work that have amped up their nutritional health along side me and friends in life. The Challenge works through us. Not only am I reaping the weekly benefits of nutrition, motivation, self worth, fitness training, but I am an example of self love and friends are “feeling the vibe” and making little or big changes right there with me. It’s a pretty cool feeling to know my life changes are causing positive ripples outward.
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April 1st, 2017

Well today was a bit of an eye opener. I was looking through the pictures on our family laptop this afternoon & I don’t exist in our memories. As usual, I was always behind the lens capturing family memories and I was sad to find that I didn’t think I was important enough to be a part of our family history of photos. I am maybe in 1 of every 20 or 30 pics. I can’t believe I let this happen. Now that my littles are 5,6 & 9, I feel like I have lost so many years of photographic memories for the kids to look back on and see mom.

This Challenge is all about embracing that you are perfect now, however that may look for you. I am going to make a major effort to get in front of the lens more often. I am an important part of my kid’s life and they need to see me in those memories. I think this year it is time for a new family portrait!! Our last one was in 2011!! Ouch. I need to value myself. I am GRATEFUL for the Total Makeover Challenge for many reasons, but today this is my big thank you moment.

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Friday March 31

Well last night was so busy but super fun.  I loved the camaraderie with Team 9 Strong.  We all worked really hard and kept it light. Yay team.  Today is voting start up for the Top 5 and I am nauseous.  It’s exciting to try and get through to the next round and nerve wracking and SAD.  How can only 5 of the 15 go through. I could never pick 5. My chest hurts :(   Whatever happens, we have made so really amazing friendships. I hope we keep it going somehow and don’t lose the magic.  It’s been life changing.

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Wednesday March 29th

It’s go go go right now. We had our final weigh in tonight for the voting website & newspaper and I am proud to share that I have lost 28 lbs and 25 inches so far!  I am feeling pretty lucky to be a part of the Challenge and I have made some really awesome friendships along the way.  We also had 2 amazing speakers tonight that spoke to us about decorating our homes as well as dressing for our body types. Thank you Carrie Thachuk from The Passionate Home and Cheryl Anderson from Rack Fashions!!! Great information tonight.

And that is just a part of my week. Tomorrow night our awesome Apprentice team is hosting our Fundraising event at the Townhall Pub in Langley (btwn 6-10).  After that we need to get ready for Shape Your World’S Little Black Dress Cocktail Party on April 12th. That is the night when we find out if we will be carrying on to the Top 5.  So, you can see it’seems a busy and stressful time right now. I am already having anxiety about either making it through without everyone else or not making it through without everyone else. It gives me palpitations a little  (lol). I don’t want it to end yet, so I an on sticking around a while longer if I can :)

 

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Sunday March 26th

So sugar addictions are strong things…. I learned this weekend that I am a lonnnng ways off from being able to have just a “little bit” of the bad stuff (cake, cookies, candy…)and then resume clean eating. This weekend is my son’s 7th birthday. I had cake friday, more stuff Saturday (too ashamed to list it) and more stuff on Sunday at his party. I feel super sick and really mad at myself.

Now we all know that we will need to be able to re-introduce the “stuff” back into our diets in moderation and control the amount. But this weekend was quite stressful. I have my kids full-time on the weekends and this weekend I had fundraising, 2 birthdays, 2 family dinners, a team meeting and all with the kids in tow. So my stress go to is sugar, and boy did I go to it! Wow, I am a crazy sugar addict.

The one thing that has changed in how I deal with this is that tomorrow I will be going clean again. In the past I would just give it all up and dive head first into my junk addiction and have a pity party. Now that I have seen positive results, I know that I can get back up and fight for my health. Tomorrow is a new day. Stupid cake, I hate you… but I love you (haha)

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Wed Mar 22nd

Tonight was pretty great.  Our special guest tonight was from Toastmasters and we each had an opportunity to speak in front of our group. I really enjoyed seeing inside everyone a little bit more tonight.  I was very lucky, I was one of the last speakers to go up.  I had the pleasure of hearing everyone share about their journey so far and the trials and tribulations. It was pretty awesome. By the time it was my turn, I felt pretty safe opening up. These ladies are something special, everyone is there to be a better version of themselves and that means we all get to benefit from being around eachother.  I am grateful for this group. I don’t want it to end.

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Sunday, March 19

Yesterday was a pretty neat day. I got to be pampered.  It started with a hair appt at The Looking Glass Salon, the my makeup was done for me at Shoppers Drug mart, Thunderbird and then I had the pleasure of having my head shots photographed by the lovely Tara Lee of Tara Lee Photography.  I have to say that I could totally get used to this (haha!).  But honestly, a day dedicated to me is rare and I fully took advantage of how fun it was.  I even sent our 3 kids to grandma’s so that my hubby and I could go out for date night.  Wasn’t going to waste my makeover on a night in watching Netflix! What a great experience.

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I crashed today. Derailed… fell flat on my face. There were freshly baked cinnamon buns on my counter and I couldn’t resist. Then I came home to homemade pizza.  These are all normal foods that will have in my regular life after all is said and done. But right now I was hoping to stay on track and continue to lose weight and maybe one day reach my previous weight range, before 3 kids.  I know one day won’t ruin 8 weeks of hard work. But one day of high calories has really left me feeling horrid.  I want to maintain these changes going forward and after the Challenge is over.  I know I will fall and I will need to get back up and pick up where I left off, but it’s so deflating when you are done having a rough food day.

Oh well, tomorrow is a new day right?

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This weekend has been so exciting!  I have kept bins of my clothes in my closet for years (since kids) in the off chance that they would fit me again one day. I tried a few things on over the past 2 months and things fit here and there but not too much.  But this weekend I tried on quite a few items and not only did they fit, some items were aleady too big!  I loved it! The crazy part was that I still managed to be disappointed when somethings were still too small (silly I know).  I need to remind myself that it took 7 yrs to gain 70lbs and that 2 mos is not going to erase that. But the momentum that I have started on this Challenge is all I need to eventually get there again.

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March 4th – Pay it Forward

So this week we are paying it forward. We focused on choosing a cause that we wanted to support and how we would give back to our communities. It’s a pretty neat feeling, coming together and a group and brainstorming “what can we do, who do we know, would people support our cause?” I have gone to fundraisers for other causes and have hosted fundraisers that directly affect our kids, but this time it’s exciting because we picked a cause that has nothing to do with my stage of life at this time. It’s just a group of ladies that are going to bust their buts to help strangers and it feel so good. We selected the “Cinderella Project”. This cause helps provide underprivileged teens have the means to experience a very huge right of passage, Grad. It feels good to support this idea because we are going through our own transformation process as well. Now I need to get out of my comfort zone and get others “on board” with us. I like this “Pay it Forward” thing… it should be a lesson we all must do. Something that we won’t personally benefit from.

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30 Challengers

Sunday, Feb 26th

Well today is the 1st morning of Round 2. Yesterday’s Amazing Race and announcement was so excited & heartbreaking. We all knew half of the names would not be called to go through to the next round, and we all knew that no one would be “out” of the Challenge if they wished to continue as a “Wildcard”, but when the 15th name is called and you look up to see friends not called it feels so badly… I know they are fighters and by no means plan on giving up (thank goodness), but the process of it all is a big deal to witness. I am deeply moved this morning by the strength and tenacity of our group of women. Different backgrounds, different stages in life, one goal. To be the BEST VERSION of ourselves that we can be. My goal is like water, flowing and changing. I wan to run, I want to be a great role model for my 3 children, I want to be strong & sexy for my hubby, I want to succeed for all my friends that have got my back. I want so much and it’s overwhelming some days. But it’s all happening everyday. This Challenge is not by myself, there are so many people right beside me every step of the way.

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Feb 13th  Family Day

Yesterday was a huge victory day for me.  If you hadn’t gathered form my previous posts or from my contestant biography, running has always been in my blood, from 5 till 35, it’s what I did & what I loved. My center.  I haven’t ran much as a result of a car accident when I was 6 mos pregnant with my second child. Became sedentary etc… other things happened (hernia surgery, heart condition…)  All those things are in the past, but now that I have a clear bill of health & am “free” to take up where I left off 7 yrs ago, I had become 70 lbs heavier. Weak, sore, sad, tired, depressed, and the list goes on.

Now back to my victory! In the past 4 weeks I have put 100% of the old me into my workouts at She’sFit. As a result I am losing inches, losing weight and building muscle mass, this “muscle memory” is no joke folks.  So my victory is this, yesterday I took the laundry piles off of the treadmill & cranked some nostalgic tunes (Beastie Boys- Sabotage is a favorite) And tried to walk/jog like I had been trying to at the gym with zero success.  Maybe it was the music, or the sun or being “happy” with myself, but I RAN, not a little, but alot. I ran for 45 minutes. I sang, I fist pumped and head nodded & I was a frigging superstar. I was the best afternoon I have had in years.

I am so grateful for the Challenge. It brought out the competitive me. I am not competing with my fellow challengers, they are on their own journey.  I am competing with the me that ate chips and mourned the loss of something awesome.  I am going to drown her and stuff her away.  The old me wants to come back, a little at atime, but she is rearing her head & she is pissed off for being in the shadows for too long!!

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February 9th –  Back to the gym this week! Yay

After a brief hiatus from the gym due to snow days, I am relieved to be back in the groove. I was starting to panic that if I went without my gym routine too long, I would fall off the wagon and revert to a couch potato again.

The past couple of workouts have been really fun because there were fellow challengers in the group.  I come from a background of of team sports, so it feels “right” when we are all working together towards a common goal.

I got distressed today when I thought about the fact that it is only a couple of weeks until we will be just 15 challengers left in our group. I stressed out a little thinking about whether I would be one of the ones to carry on or would I not make it through after all this hard work.  Regardless of the result, I know I want to continue on this path of healthier choices, but I am afraid I will lose my drive and motivation without my team. I have lost weight and inches and am fitting my too tight clothes. I want to keep feeling this excitement for a bit longer.  This challenge has really awakened a part of me that was long asleep. I am grateful for the experience.

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Feb 6th – SNOW DAY

Well, like many others I am stuck at home with the kids today, as the schools are closed for a “Snow Day”.  It’s our first closure in 5 yrs.  I am really feeling an energy lag due to no access to the gym for 7 days now and really sad about it.  I had not noticed how much I had missed that “me” time, free time to push myself like I did before mommyhood.  At home working out is still interspersed with parenting, so it isn’t as enjoyable due to the random “mom, mom, mom, mom”.   Today was my night to go back to the gym after work, but I will try again tomorrow. Shoveling snow has been a great past time, but not nearly as enjoyable as listening to my tunes on the circuit.

Not expecting much weight loss or inches lost this week.  I ate out twice this weekend, tried to make the best choices I could, but googled the calories after and OUCH. Not to mention it is my daughter’s 10th bday this Wednesday and I had a cupcake yesterday, my first weekend with sugar etc. since I started the challenge.  I feel like I have to wipe this week from the record books and start again tomorrow.  Lots of great moments over the last week, but I really missed my gym time and I am not ready to be near sweets or food fairs or malls. Actually not ready to go out yet lol! Just Home, Work or Gym are safe for me right now.

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Feb 4, 2017  – Week 3 Weigh in went well, measurements were promising but I couldn’t get to the gym as much as I had planned.  Sometimes I wish I lived alone so I only had to worry about my meals and schedule ;)   Only for a minute.

This challenge is exactly that… A CHALLENGE.  It’s designed to get you out of your box.  I am trying to approach my attitude towards food differently, but that’s going to take time. 40 yrs of being obsessed with treats doesn’t change in 3 weeks.  My old roommate and and I used to run over 40km a week so we could eat cheesecake, literally! We would run and chant “we do it for the cheesecake” over & over.  Ah, good the good ol days….

Now I need to coordinate 5 lives just to make it to a 30 min speed class after wk.  I work 9-5pm Monday to Friday, have 3 little ones that are also in school, dance & soccer & a husband that works 12 hrs shifts Fri-Sun.  My situation isn’t out of the ordinary, but it’s crazy hard to fit meetings, meal prep, groceries and exercise in there.  You have to really want this to make it work, it won’t fall in your lap.  I think I will attempt online groceries this week and post how that goes for me :)  Now I must go grocery shopping for some essentials because that box of ritz crackers is seriously looking tempting.

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steak

So I had “Date night” on the weekend, it was so much harder than I had hoped.  I ordered a steak & veggies & subbed asparagus for the potatoes.  It all tasted lovely, but if you have to sit across from a “non dieter” & watch everyone around you enjoy your most favorite foods, the fun is gone.  I wanted baked garlic shrimp with bread, I wanted the wine, the cheesecake…. everyone was eating it all around me but me. I felt like I was in a torture scene, especially when the couple right next to me started to feed their creme brule to each other. Blah!  I know that I will re-introduce some of my treat foods in moderation at some point, but I am balancing precariously on the eat clean or gorge till I puke stage.

I have been hearing alot of other challengers saying this week has been harder. I get it, it is really hard this week for me as well. The excitement has waned a bit so the euphoric tidal wave of change has subsided and now it’s hard work, parenting, school, full time job, marriage, the gym, oh and not to mention changing your entire relationship with food & exercise!!  I don’t even know what to cook for my family at night. They don’t like my food, so I kind just stare at the fridge. My poor kids! lol

I know it’s a phase, but it’s a crummy one right now. Hoping for another upswing of positive energy soon.  I feel very accountable since this Challenge is so very public. But I feel grateful, because I would have given up after two days if it wasn’t so very public…

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Here is my makeover challenge journey through my eyes. Blogging is new to me, so I was told to “journal”…. here we go

Week 1
Applying, Acceptance & Meet n Greet

For those of you that don’t already know me.  My life became sport oriented at 5 yrs old when I started soccer.  Grade 2 track n field started & it literally revolved entirely around sport & fitness (with a couple breaks) until I was 6 mos pregnant with my 2nd child & my little Honda accord was struck by a big black SUV on my way to work. I literally stopped exercise cold turkey that day.  Then to top it off, I gained A LOT of weight from depression eating and inability to exercise.  My university education was for Fire Sciences, as I had aspired to be a firefighter since the age of 5.  Once these things were all taken from me, I completely had an identity crisis.  I was (in my mind) the culmination of my sports & education… that was off the table, so who was I now?  I just hid inside this new body (dreading if I saw anyone who knew me before).  I skipped my reunion, horrified that anyone I knew would see me now.  And that was my new life.
So getting to the present challenge:

I was in Starbucks, following my typical trend of ordering a high calorie, high fat latte & cheese Danish, when I glanced up and noticed a nice poster that said “2017 Total Makeover Challenge”! I took a snapshot on my phone to better investigate later. After heading home I locked myself in my bedroom (away from the kids) and quickly answered the application questions without even taking the time to breath. It was like my hands were on fire… if I took a minute & thought about what I was doing, I would have quickly walked away. If you asked me what the questions were, I would not be able to tell you because I did so fast and erased the process from my memory bank. Ok, that was done, “out of sight out of mind” right?

A week later I received a congratulatory call, I was accepted! Oh, no!!! What had I done?? I have 3 kids and a husband, and a dog, and cat and fish…. You get the picture. They all need me to dedicate every second of my free time to them to survive!! I almost panicked and said “no thank you” I don’t think I can commit to this. But then she told me it was Wednesday nights, darn! Wednesday nights are my only nights without swim, soccer or dance for one of my littles, I couldn’t in good conscience say “no” to this opportunity. I felt like it was meant to be. So obviously I said “yes” & agreed to go to the meet and greet with all of the other Challengers the next evening.

Meet N Greet:
Ok, the Meet and Greet was so overwhelming, but in a very positive way. I walked up to the venue & saw so many challengers and sponsors. I quickly realized that this challenge was way bigger than I had pictured in my mind. I pictured a casual group chatting & working out, but this was big, really big. 60 women from the Langley and Abby challenge, a whole slew of Sponsors, past challengers and finally the members of the Shape Your World Society were all there & cheering us on. So in a nutshell, for me that is overwhelming. It was a night of meeting each other, learning what to expect and real positive reinforcement. I was getting pretty excited to get this show on the road. I went home and made a healthy lunch for work the next day and went to bed.

Monday: I told everyone at the office, mainly because if they all knew about the challenge I wouldn’t feel like having the doughnuts in the lunchroom. I did well, ate pretty health, and waited for our first meeting on Wednesday.
Tuesday: I took my son to soccer & told the parents there… nothing like accountability to motivate you!
Wednesday: was the first meeting, so I went to She’s Fit to register and get a tour. It was very positive and I felt comfortable there. I had been nervous, as I hadn’t been to the gym since I don’t know. I headed over to the meeting and we weighed in. They even did fat percentages etc… I burst out laughing at my fat % reading. I honestly was surprised I could have that much fat and be alive! The last time I did this kind of reading I was a marathoner and my percentage was ¼ of what it was at the meeting. I laughed because it was better than crying. But I thought “This is the worst it’s ever going to be”. From this point forward it would only get better, right? We spent the night learning or in my case “re-learning” what I needed nutritionally for my body to function at it’s best.
Sunday Jan 15 – Food Prep! My relationship with food is no different than many other people. Food was a reward. Happy =eat, sad= definitely eat, bored= let’s eat! As an ex distance runner, food was no big deal if I was going to run 40km a week. But times have changed; food has meant larger dress sizes for 6 yrs now.
So I called in the brigade. My lovely sister in law Nat is a personal trainer, so I enlisted her help & she spent the entire afternoon in my kitchen showing me how to make meals that that don’t taste like cardboard & won’t make me gain 70lbs. Yay!! I fear I won’t do it quite as well in my own, but I will give it a go, nothing to lose right?
Monday – I packed a super awesome lunch, went to She’sFit for my circuit all went well, repeated that on Tuesday.
Wednesday I was very anxious… Weigh in day & more Challenge Learning. Weigh in went better than I could have hoped with the scale dropping & lots of cheers! Yay! Everyone has been so happy and supportive in our group, I get anxiety about any of us not going through together.

Friday: My awesome mom picked up my kids from school & took them to dinner so I could go to the gym after wk! Yay! Coming up with meals that are friendly to my kid’s palettes as well as good for my new eating plan are really hard right now.  This is a day by day learning curve for sure!

Today Is Saturday & it’s been 2 weeks since I found out, I am tired today because I will need to shop and meal prep this weekend, but it was a birthday party/dance rehearsal day & tonight is “date night”.  I want to order wine, but have been so good with my clean eating I am afraid I will wreck so much of the hard work.  I don’t think I am ready to introduce the happy juice just yet. Tomorrow is another day of dance rehearsals & I am still wondering when I will shop & prep. This eis feeling hard today, but there will be ups and downs with my energy, I know that

Created on 2017-01-28 17:46:05