Feb 14ht, 2017
Happy Love Day! I started my day by meeting these lovely ladies at a 6:15am spin class at the rec center. Know what life thoughts I had during this class? Thunder Thighs. I don’t remember the jiggle as much before. What really gets me, is I have the cardio. The actual spin class was a work out was great, I didn’t get dizzy, I didn’t fall off the bike at the end, I didn’t cry. I could talk with my neighbor. I just don’t have the outter size of me that I do in my head. I can go for 4 hour hikes, I just don’t e like I can go for 4 hour hikes. I’ve taken people hiking who have thrown up because they couldn’t physical keep up but half my size. That’s a frustrating thing I’m sure others go thru too. Its about time it all matches up and pushing myself at these classes is the way to do it. Another note, we were told it will be about 3 weeks before the bike seat got comfortable…..seriously thought I had the padding to make that but nope. Thursday morning again Lisa & Jaime?!?!
Valentine’s Day working in an elementary school is just a 3 hour afternoon party. Every class you go in has treats, kids are giving you Valentine’s with chocolates (did I mention two dozen donughts in the staff room, ON VALENTINES DAY!!). I had an ahha moment the night before and stuck 3 extra carrots in my lunch kit to crunch on. Did I have a chocolate? Dang rights I did, the student was standing there offering it to me but life is about moderation.
Feb 13th, 2017
Well Family Day Monday and the best part, the family didn’t even question I was going to the gym or asking me how long or when I would be home. It was ‘bye, see ya’ (like it’s almost normal). As you are sweating parts of you on the treadmill you have time to contemplate life. It’s then I realized I have closed many a bars down at 1am but never have I closed a gym down at 1pm!! Thank you Jasmine for letting me be one of the last ones out. (don’t know what’s going on with my lips but selfies are not my strong suite)
I have realized when I’m not in my Mon – Fri routine (with all the snow days and holiday and week-end) it makes me work a lot harder with my eating. I’m a routine person. I can eat the same lunches during the week and be okay with it. It’s packed so I’ve made my healthy choices and know they are the right one. But the week-ends when I have to wing it with my food it’s much harder. I’m usually cooking breakfast for the whole family (instead of a shake for myself during the week) and making two can be a pain or making the kids lunches (grilled cheese then making my salad separate). It’s a lot more work then it really seems. I think I have the exercise desire down pat, making sure I make right week-end choices is my next goal.
Feb 12th, 2017
One thing I’ve learnt so far in this journey (and it was my happy thought of the day), eating healthier doesn’t mean I can’t do the same fun things I did a month ago. We can still have a card nights with friends, I just bring a snack I know I’m going to enjoy (and usually end up sharing it) or brunch out with friends for cheap Sunday’s. A month ago you would have seen two plates with bacon, eggs, hash brown & toast with coffee. The new me was the Santa Fe omelette with no sour cream, fruit instead of hash browns, no toast or bacon. Skipped the coffee for lemon water. And want to know something, it was so freakin’ good. I know!! I was shocked as well.
Life is good my friends, enjoying all this Sunday has to offer.
Feb 11th, 2017
It may not have been at 5:15am but these are the back end of my walking buddies, always eager to get me outside. Its funny how their internal clocks are set, at 5am every morning the white & black dog makes his way into our room and lays down on the dog pillow in our room (opposed to the couch he’s been sleeping on all night). See my alarm is on my fitbit so it’s not like they ‘hear’ the clock going off, they just know. Today I took a rest of the gym but had more important time going with my bestie and spending the afternoon laughing and getting Pedi’s. Sometimes the soul needs southing <3
Feb 9th, 2017
Third day this week they’ve called a snow day and considering I work for the Langley school district, I’ll okay with that. But do you see this beast below?
This is NOT my friend!! First of all I’m sure those watching would have had a chuckle trying to see my short little legs try to leap up on the first step but have enough balance to step on the second step before the whole thing rotated down and I’m back on the floor. It’s been a long time since I’ve left that much sweat on a machine. Didn’t help I thought it would be a good idea after 30 min of intervals on the treadmill. But the pain and strain I felt all day every time I stood up made me want to tackle this beast again tomorrow.
I heard back from one company willing to be a stop on our Amazing Race Challenge in two weeks, woo hoo, thank you Kintec! With the weather finally calming down I am going to tackle a few more tomorrow afternoon. I have one, I’m happy, any other on top of that is icing on the cake.
Next week-end we have a seminar all week-end, we’ve been warned it can be emotional and tiring. See emotional is not me. I’m afraid I’m going to be sitting there not shedding a tear when people around me are letting it all out. I’m a very caring person but I’m a fact person, I see in black and white, I’m a Type A personality. I deal with things as they come and let them go. I don’t have regrets, everything I’ve been thru has gotten me to the place I am at right now and I wouldn’t change a thing. I’m hoping I don’t look like a cold hearted b*tch to people around me, I am caring but not emotional. Does that make sense?
Feb 8th, 2017
The snow just doesn’t want to stop!! But I’m okay with that, I have a big a** truck that can still get me to the gym. The only thing I’m missing is walking my dogs in the morning (I think they are missing it more then I am). My steps aren’t as much each day but I’ve increased my time and intravals at the gym. I did have a friend stop by and ask why the wine was outside. My response ‘because i cant drink it when its out there lol’. Tonights meeting was cancelled due to the snow which means no ‘official’ weigh in but according to my home scale we are down, yah!!
As this challenge goes on i am having no problems avoiding all the cookies in the lunch room or desserts when we go out for friends birthdays. Which is hard on one hand because I’m doing everything by the book and its up to my body if it wants to cooperate!! Something I don’t have full control over and as someone with Type A personality, that’s hard for us to deal with. I haven’t had a drink in 3 weeks, dessert in 3 weeks, Starbucks in 3 weeks and in all honestly still enjoying it. ❤❤
Feb 6th, 2017
Well we enjoyed a quite ‘snow day’ morning but as promised I had my butt to the gym at 10am. Besides my fellow contestants that were also there, I much prefer the 6am crowd. Less people I guess want to get their sweat on at 6am, less people using the popular machines. As soon as I got home the kids wanted to get their sleds out and enjoy what mother natures gifted us (snow isn’t my favorite thing unless I’m snowshoeing). But off we went and a few times up and down the hills we were all done. A well deserved laid back afternoon. Having a cup of coffee and watching the snow fall, knowing there wont be another snow day tomorrow.
Feb 5th, 2017
Never would I ever have gone to the gym on a SUNDAY! Really a Sunday? But there I was at 11am running my intervals and doing my weights. It was a typical Sunday, the day where you do laundry which means you’re down to your back up underwear, the ones you try to avoid wearing due to being uncomfortable. Well for the first time since I can remember they fit just fine. I could wear them without adjusting them out of places they shouldn’t be riding! Yah me!
In preparing for the week ahead (and to help fend off the chills of the weather) I made a big ‘ol pot of Turkey soup. Good news is they called a snow day tomorrow which means this Momma doesn’t have to get up at 5:15 to start my day, woo hoo. But I will still make it to the gym, more like 10am, lets see how the regular folks work out.
Feb 2, 2017
If you’ve ever worked in a school you know there is food everywhere. It just so happens to be my treat Wednesday and I shared it with a co-worker. I made chilli, everyone likes chilli. My lovely co-worker brought tuxedo cake from Costco and cookies. We booth stood strong and avoided the tuxedo (only the best cake ever!). Here’s what I avoided and enjoyed my salad topped with left over pork chops from last nights dinner.
Feb 4, 2017
Today was a rest day, a day to catch up on computer stuff, emails. Kids spent most of the day enjoying the ongoing snow outside. I prepped for the week by shopping, snacks for easy go to. I also don’t want to deny my family their favorites. Yes this is a family change but it’s not their fault I look at dessert and gain, that’s my good luck. How do you know I’m serious about this? I didn’t even lick the bowl for the banana bread I made for the family. Nor did I eat one marshmallow of their rice krispie squares. A win for me! Hubby & I made the pineapple/coconut milk treat for dessert. So much better then ice cream. I also used the pineapple juice in my water, so yummy.
Feb 3rd, 2017
Such great support from friends. We were invited over for dinner and to help me in this journey she made lovely chicken stir fry and our new favorite dessert, frozen pineapple and coconut milk. Yummm even the hubby enjoyed it! Feeling the love.
Feb 3, 2017
I’ll admit it, I woke hoping & praying for snow so I had a reason not to walk the dogs. No snow when I peered thru the blinds. Two wet noses behind me waiting for their walks. 10 min in I’m glad there was no snow, I need this time in the day to myself. I know it’s going to be a busy one. A few things on PAC are finishing up today which means reports to run, emails to send, numbers to count. This time of the day makes everything after run smoothly, I’m on top of my game.
At the gym I realized I have a love hate relationship with the intervals on the treadmill. I hate the wobbly parts jiggling as I ‘run’ but feel great when I’m done. I’m at 20 min now, next week my goal is 30 min! As I took a moment to chose my treadmill, I had to chose carefully. I know the ones that don’t have closed captioned on and I learnt almost the hard way I can not read the ticker on the bottom and run at the same time. They were spaced too close to the tall, lean running lady. Instead I chose someone who was fluffy like myself. Why would I gallop like a Clydesdale beside someone who runs like a jizal?
I will conquer today!! <3
As I go along in this challenge I try not to get swept up in points. You see this challenge is 50% weight/inches lost and 50% is points. To say I’m competitive would be an understatement. Knowing I am trying to earn points by finding sponors, points by finding locations for our Amazing Race, points for pledges for the Amazing Race, points for not gaining weight each week. But I realize you can only be yourself and do all you can do. I have to take a step back and remember I still have my life on top of this. I have two kids, I have a wonderful hubby, I have work, I have Girl Guides, I have Brownies, I have PAC. This can not be all consuming but it is meant to improve every other aspect of my life.
I realized the best time to reflect on why this is important to me is at 5:30 am as I’m walking the dogs. Really, I have to have a pretty DAMN good reason to get up at the crack of ass everyday. Today’s is the fact I have always discreetly placed a small child in front of me in pictures to hide the front fluff (we don’t say fat in our house, but fluffy according to the funny comedian Gabriel Iglesias). Seeing as I’m 5’3″, my hubby is 6’7″ my kids sure didn’t get their height from me. I don’t have much longer before I can no longer have a front shield from the camera. Time to up my game. Not to mention I’m always the one taking the pictures. When my kids are older and I’m gone I want to be in the picture with them and be happy with who I see. My kids need more pictures with me in them!!
Feb 1st, 2017
See these cute boots? These very cute boots that are all the fashion right now? This was my 5:30am thought (along with I have to remember to wear long pants when walking the dogs, its still chilly). I don’t own a pair of these. Why don’t I wear a pair of these? In my mind you need cute pants to wear with them. I don’t have cute pants. When I gained 5/10/15lbs I wanted comfy. I’m tired of comfy. Well I still want comfy but I want comfy and cute. My goal is a pair of boots like these next fall. I’m ready to step out of my ‘has to be black and stretchy’ comfort zone. I used to bike to my old school last year. I remember the first time I put jeans on, every person in my house commented I was wearing jeans. Had it really been that long? I deserver to wear jeans again.
It was meeting night tonight. I tried not to be nervous, it was weight in and measurements which is every two weeks. I knew after a big loss last week I’d be low this week but thankfully I had the measurements to make up for it. Good news is I lost and any number going down is a number going in the right direction. Total down 8lbs and 5″. Not to shabby for 2 weeks. We got to check out Nature’s Fare which is a lovely place. I did find a new favorite Dropping Mad Beets, beet chips. My hubby says they are safe from him, lol.
Feb 2nd, 2017
I MUST have been tired. I slept thru my first fitbit silent alarm (silent but still vibrates on my wrist). Usually my alarm consists of me trying to tap it just once (if you tap it twice it turns it off and I’m laying there saying ‘Don’t go back to sleep’ ‘don’t close eyes’) as I’m a person who needs one snooze. If you own a fitbit and use the alarm you know what I’m talking about. I almost wished I could see how silly it must look like. But my internal clock woke me up, knowing I was craving the gym.
I looked thru some old pictures last night and have you had that moment. You have a favorite shirt/outfit. Love you feel wearing it then you see a picture. Then you wonder why you thought that. You tuck it back into your closest till you have 5 less pounds on you. I have to many shirts tucked back there, it’s time to be able to wear them again.
Danny & I decided shakes for breakfast makes the mornings so smooth (get it shake, smooth….). I have an HOUR to get home, shower, get ready, have something to eat, make sure the girls have all their socks on, hair brushed (I’m not the only mom who looks at her daughters hair and think it can stay in the same pigtails two days in a room right? The teacher has 22 other students in her class, she wont notice the straggles of hair escaping the elastics), backpacks packed, my lunch ready to go. Shakes are my life saver and honestly keeps me full till lunch.
I’m also thankfull that the fruit of this month in SD34 is kiwi’s. Do you know how many kids don’t like kiwi’s? ALOT! Which is good for Mrs. Phelan here. I get to add them to my cottage cheese at recess break. I tried the shakes for lunch but I like the art of eating during conversation with the teachers. It was just too weird sitting there drinking something instead of comparing lunches and getting ideas. Back to the salads and soups for me.
It’s a Monday, I will not let Monday win. I have convinced a dear friend to join me at the gym. I was so proud that someone who is not in the challenge would get her tired a** out of her warm bed to join and support me. I think we look damn fine for 6am lol. Not to mention my T-Rex arms couldn’t take the picture, thanks Shauna (no matter how many times I try I never know where to look at the camera for selfies, I must remember to try to make picture taking my friend).
I was at a Girl Guide event from 9am – 4pm. I may not have gotten ‘a work out’ in but I did log over 13K steps, I’ll take it. I loved it when my sisters in guiding would come up to me (also buddies on fitbit) and tell me to stop, just stop walking. They don’t even challenge me anymore. Now that makes a girl feel good.
We headed up to the lake to burn our Christmas tree with dear friends (an annual tradition). I realize this challenge is truly making an impact. For lunch it was a plain hotdog weenie and carrots and water. Even better I enjoyed it! The pre-challenge Carmen would have been a hotdog in a bun with a side of chips and lets throw a ginger ale in there for good times. It was my rest day, I felt good sitting around with friends enjoying the little things in life. I’ve worked hard for many years to enjoy a Saturday off, I must remember that before I take them for granted again.
January 25th, 2017
Weigh in day. Nervous Carmen not wanting to get my hopes up. Knowing how hard I’ve worked, how much I’ve given up but my body doesn’t always co-operate when I want it to. At first I didn’t know what to think when Anita asked me to step on and off the scale THREE times. THREE times! At this point I’m thinking the worst. But nope, I’m down 7.4! If I could I’d snowshoe every week-end if that’s my loss! They did explain big losses means the second week wont be much but I’m okay with that (for now, I’m still floating on my loss), as long as it’s not a gain. Tonight’s meeting was all about social media. Facebook I’ve got and understand. Tweeting nope. Hashtag, nope (it’s still a pound sign to me damn it!). This is one curve I don’t think I’ll be able to obtain.
At the last meeting we were asked to find sponsors for our profile page and asking for help is not something I do well (just ask my husband). Waking up the morning after the meeting I’m reading ladies who have already found 2/3/4/5 sponsors? Did they sleep? How fast did they work? So I took a leap and put it out there asking for help and wouldn’t you know it, I had friends step forward and offer. Thank you Ryan, Mike & Dennis! I believe strong in karma and playing it forward <3
Can’t let Monday win, I must get up and get my gym visit in! Kept drinking my water, eating my protein life is good. Avoiding the cookies the kids wanted to bake, so proud of myself. Then my gracious co-guider brings me this to tonight’s meeting thanking me for taking the brunt of the work this week-end. BUT I will be a good girl, I will drink what’s in the cup on the right (till at least my weigh in Wednesday). I’ve worked too hard these past few days. As a friend who’s also a personal trainer says ‘skinny tastes good too’. I must learn to enjoy the taste of skinny.
Well this is my blog for the week-end as I didn’t have any internet access. I have to pat myself on the back. Even though I knew we were going to be snowshoeing into a rustic cabin (rustic as in no heat, running water or electricity) I still made it to the gym for a work out before morning craziness. It was sure a workout pulling a 100lb sled up the mountain containing food for 18 people for just one day (the other half of the food was in the truck for Saturday to be pulled in) and carrying my pack with all my gear in snowshoes for about 35 min. Saturday morning I had to pull a sick girl out on a sled to meet with her parents (poor thing didn’t want to go home). After the girls were done tubing in the afternoon I got to pull the second sled of food in, probably about another 100lbs. It’s not a surprise I was logging about 16,000 steps on my fitbit. Sunday we all snowshoe out, pulling my last sled for the week-end, this one was easy at about 70lbs lol. I was so proud of my girls who went. Snowshoeing is a lot of work, they all had their own packs on and they all made with out collapsing.
Alarm went off at 5:15 and for a split second I wanted to turn it off. Then the competitor in my wouldn’t allow it. Only three days into 5:15 mornings and the dogs have picked up on the routine. The minute my feet hit the floor both dogs are my shadow from the bathroom (where I have to change as everyone else in my house is still having sweet dreams) to the front door. I’m glad I have carved time out in the morning to get my work outs in as I am prepping for a Girl Guide camp for 14 girls today. Tonight is my only night to do all the food purchasing, packing and prepping. We are off right after work tomorrow for Cypress Mountain.
The food part of this challenge isn’t much of a challenge. My only tweak so far is portion size. Normally I don’t eat drive thru (have you ever bought drive thru for 5 people?! It’s not cheap anymore!), I don’t drink pop (unless it’s mix in a drink containing gin and that’s not as often as I would like it to be), I’m not a chip eater or a binge eater. My issue is metabolism and getting the heart rate up in work outs. That’s where I know I’m going to have to push myself. I almost wish I had started out with bad eating habits, maybe I would see a dramatic change right away.
January 18, 2017
Was up again this morning at 5:15, everything is so quite that early in the morning. It’s kind of peaceful…if it weren’t still dark outside.
Our first meeting with the 30 Langley contestants, what a fun night of meeting ladies who are just as nervous, excited and inspired as I am. We had two wonderful ladies from Herbalife give us a great information session (along with a sample kit). Did you know you are supposed to drink half your body weight in ounces of water?! Do you know how many Venti Starbucks cups in my travel cup that is? 6! I have to drink 6 Venti cups of water in a day. More if you work out or drink coffee. Who doesn’t drink coffee? I see myself floating away soon. I also see more protein in my meals. At first I was like ‘Oh, I HAVE a reason to eat cheese!’ but of course everything in moderation.
Time to take this tired body and tired brain to bed. Lots of information was put in tonight, I have room for no more.
January 17, 2017
Life with kids starts at 7am and in order to get everyone where they are supposed to be we need to leave the house by 8am. Which means this Momma needs to get to the gym for 6am. BUT my two fur babies need to be walked as I would feel too guilty using the treadmill knowing the dogs didn’t get out (weird I know). So my new schedule has me up at 5:15, walking the dogs from 5:30-6am, then gym 6-7am. I can make this work. I’ve had kids, I’m used to running on less sleep then the average human being…..
She’s Fit is where I got to meet Brea. Seriously, if you were ever nervous about joining a gym she makes you feel right at home, just a bit stinkier Amazingly enough, I budgeted time perfectly, doesn’t happen often but I’ll take it. Everyone go to where they needed to be on time. Hopefully my lucky streak will continue!
January 15, 2017
Meet and Great in Abbotsford with ALL 60 contestants!! If I were ever to try speed dating it must be like this. ‘Hi, nice to meet you’ ‘Are you in the Langley challenge?’ ‘No, Abbotsford, well good luck to you’. What a swarm of faces, some I’m to remember on Wednesday for our first Langley meeting. We got to meet most of the sponsors, walked out with my head spinning with information I’m hoping to retain some of it without having to ask the questions again.
For those who don’t know me, I’m a tad bit competitive! Hence why I asked if we could start She’s Fit tomorrow. I was told by Anita to at least give her a day to send in the names to She’s Fit. All right fine, if I HAVE too. I have totally lucked out as She’s Fit it literally 3 min from my house if I hit both lights, I think I can make this working out thing happen.
January 14, 2017
In a typical crazy Saturday as I’m ushering a child (not even mine) out of the truck after a Brownie (Girl Guide) event and my phone rings. It’s Anita! I’ve been chosen for the Total Makeover Challenge! What have I gotten myself into? I’m quickly asking Anita if I can call her back, trying to call the child who is running to her door back to the truck, my life pulled in all different directions at once, feels about normal.
I literally come bouncing into my house all excited telling my husband and my kids ‘They chose me’ ‘They chose me’. My mind is going crazy with thoughts and ideas of what’s to come in the next 6 weeks, 12 weeks, 4 months. How am I going to fit one more thing into my life? Lets just see how many balls I can juggle in the air without dropping any of them.
Thankfully Anita tells me weekly meetings are held on Wednesdays which is the only night of the week I have free, it was meant to be! You see this crazy women runs two Girl Guide units (because I had to space my girls far enough apart not to ever be in the same unit and what you do with one you have to do with the other). Monday’s is Guides, Tuesday’s is Brownies and two Wednesdays of the month WERE for PAC meetings and district Girl Guide meetings. Oh yah, I threw PAC president on my volunteer load this year. Thankfully I work with a great group of parents at my girls school so they are willing to change those meetings to Thursdays. Okay, I am freeing up time so far.
Now lets add work to this, I work fulltime as am SEA (special needs teacher) at a wonderful little rural school in Langley. Needless to say my husband is a wonderful man who understands the girls are young only once and eventually they wont need mom around so I’m going to get as much time with them now as I can. My son is 18, graduated and a hairdresser. Still living at home but a full on adult who we see in passing, lol.
What got me to where I am today?? How much time do you have? One of my problems is I can’t say no. Someone needs help, sure. Someone needs an extra set of hands, sure. Someone needs a ride, sure. Thankfully I am type A personality so multi-tasking is my expertise. I come from a long line of ‘big boned’ people. We are German, old school farming Germans so tiny people we aren’t. I always used that as a ‘reason’ for not being a suitable size. When I had my last child I stayed home and daycare. Quickly realized staying home wasn’t for me. Waitressing was perfect, work nights & week-ends, still be home during the day with my kids and day caring. With waitressing came restaurant food for dinners. Not to mention when you close a restaurant down at 2am you’re not eating dinner at normal dinner time. So I was working long hours, eating restaurant food and eating at all the wrong hours. Sounds like a perfect recipe for where I am now.
Applying for this challenge was the first thing I have done for ME in a long time. Something that I didn’t realize till recently is long overdue. You can only give so much to everyone else before you start having nothing left to give. Now that I’ve been accepted, just where am I going to carve time to work out (one perk is we get a membership to She’s Fit for as long as we are in the competition)…..working on that as I type…..